Title: Tempting Rowan
Author: Micalea Smeltzer
Release Date: 4 May, 2014
Blog Tour Organised by: Stephanie's Book Report
I’m drowning in the numbness. It’s pulling me under and I can’t see the surface. It’s easier to pretend I can’t feel. And the longer you pretend, the easier it is to believe. But he wants to save me. Only he can’t. I have to save myself…and I don’t know if I want to.
Rowan Sinclair’s life has been anything but easy. With an alcoholic mother and a sleazy stepfather, it’s been her responsibility to raise her younger siblings. At twenty-one she’s chained to a life she doesn’t want, but sees no other alternative. After all, what would happen to her brother and sister if she were to leave?
Trenton Wentworth sees the pain behind Rowan’s eyes. He wants nothing more than to make it disappear. To hold her. To love her. Except Rowan keeps everyone at a safe distance. But if there’s anyone that can break down the walls she’s built around herself, it’s Trent. So she avoids him at all costs. But Trent isn’t one to be easily evaded. He’s stubborn and determined. He’ll save this girl even if it costs him everything.
“What
are you doing here?” I stuttered, looking around for a means of escape. I
needed to get away from him before I did something stupid…like give into the
temptation of Trenton.
Brilliant
question, Rowan. I scolded myself when I realized
what I’d asked him. Sometimes, words seemed to fly from my mouth without me
thinking through what I was about to say. I really needed to work on that.
He
chuckled, wetting his lips with the tip of his tongue. “It’s a library. There’s
usually only one reason to be here.”
“Usually?”
I questioned with a raised brow. What other reason would one have for coming to
the library?
His
smile widened. “Well,” he leaned towards me, his lips grazing the shell of my
ear, “if you’re really quiet you can always have sex.” He pulled back, laughing
at my wide-eyed expression. “I always did have a naughty librarian fantasy.” He
looked me up and down and a blush stained my cheeks in what I was sure was an
unflattering shade of red. My hair was pulled back, my tortoise shell glasses
perched on the end of my nose since my contacts had been bothering me today,
and I was wearing a pencil skirt and button down top. It might not have
been naughty, but I was dressed like a librarian since I
worked here after classes and studied before going home.
“I
really need to go,” I explained, realizing that I was still standing in front
of him like an idiot. I tried to push past him, but he ceased my efforts with a
hand on my arm. His sweatshirt was rolled up, displaying the tattoos that
covered his one arm. Tattoos I had been very intimately acquainted with once
upon a time. I wondered if he even remembered.
“How
could I forget?” He asked.
Oh,
no. Had I said that out loud?
“You
didn’t have to,” he answered my unspoken question. “I could see it in your eyes
that you were thinking about that night.”
I
swallowed, my heart beating a mile a minute.
“You
were the one that left, Rowan,” his voice held a tone of irritation. “You never
gave me a chance to prove myself to you.” His thumb rubbed circles on my arm,
still refusing to let me go, and it was like he thought I was an animal he
could calm with a soft touch.
“You
didn’t have to,” I yanked my arm from his grasp and glared at him. “I know what
guys like you want from a girl like me. You got it, okay? There’s no need to
keep up the farce of a good guy.”
He
stared at me with a look of shock. His mouth opened and closed, gaping like a
fish. He was at a loss for words and Trenton wasn’t the kind of guy to be left
speechless.
I
took this opportunity for what it was, and all but ran out the doors of the
library. I had to get away from him. If I stood there a second longer I
wouldn’t be able to resist him. From the moment I first laid eyes on Trent,
when I moved to Winchester my freshman year of high school, I’d been under his
spell.
“Rowan!”
He called after me, but I kept walking like I hadn’t heard him. “You’re the one
acting like a player! So, what?! I was good enough to fuck once but I’m not
good enough to give a chance?!” Those words hit me like a slap in the face. Not
because they were true, but because they were so very wrong. Trent didn’t know
the real me. No one did. If he found out about me, about what
I had done, he wouldn’t want anything to do with me. I knew that, so I was only
trying to spare him. It had been five years since we lost our virginity to each
other on a school camping trip our sophomore year. I’d have thought by now he
would’ve forgotten about me, but Trent wasn’t like most guys. He actually cared.
He was real. And he was perfect. I didn’t deserve him,
frankly no one did. But for some reason, he thought I was someone worth caring
about. But if he knew the kind of person I really was he’d run as far away from
me as his feet would take him.
I
reached the sidewalk and turned to see him standing on the steps staring at me.
“Answer
me,” his voice was raised, but not angry. He sounded hurt and that broke my
heart, because I was the one causing him pain. If he’d leave me alone, he
wouldn’t have to feel that way. But Trent wasn’t the type of guy to give up.
Whenever we ran into each other it was like…he still cared about me, and I
couldn’t understand it. I ran away from him after we had sex and ignored him
through the rest of high school. On the rare occasions when I was forced to
interact with him, I was less than friendly. He needed to stay away. I couldn’t
afford to let him get close.
“Girls
like me don’t end up with guys like you,” I told him and he flinched like I had
slapped him.
“Guys
like me, huh?” His jaw flexed. “Funny,” he descended the remaining few steps
and stood in front of me. He stared at me for a moment, anger and sadness
stormed in his eyes. “Because somehow, in this situation,” he pointed to him
and then me, “it seems like I’m the one that got used. Not
you.”
1.
Stay the Night-Zedd
2.
Hey Brother-Avicii
3.
Nitesky-Robot Koch
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Addicted to You-Avicii
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Wicked Game-Emika
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Kill Your Heroes-Awolnation
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Ticking Bomb-Aloe Blacc
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Say Something-A Great Big World
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Afraid-The Neighborhood
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Still into You-Paramore
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Heart Attack-Enrique Iglesias
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Sweater Weather-The Neighbourhood
13.
Happiness-The Fray
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Heaven Knows-The Pretty Reckless
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Dead in the Water-Ellie Goulding
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My Blood-Ellie Goulding
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Love Me Again-John Newman
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Waiting Game-Banks
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Don't Be Afraid-Lee DeWyze
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Open Your Eyes-Lee DeWyze
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Touch-Daughter
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Heavy in your Arms-Florence + the Machine
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Invincible-All Good Things
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Where I Come From-Lifehouse
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Team-Lorde
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Last One You Love-Goldhouse
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Don't Wake Me-Robots Don't Sleep
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Sad Song-We the Kings
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What it Is-Kodaline
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Drink You Away-Justin Timberlake
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Do or Die-3OH!3
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Don't Deserve You-Plumb
Micalea Smeltzer is an author from Virginia. Her name is pronounced Muh-call-e-uh. She is permanently glued to her computer, where she constantly writes. She has to listen to music when she writes and has a playlist for every book she’s ever started. When she’s not writing, she can be found reading a book or playing with her three dogs.
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